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小升初在即

Long before I saw you「Samifer」

AU-BDSM(Dom/Sub)
第一次看这对的AU,作者的文笔真的超棒,整篇文都透着甜虐甜虐的感觉,Lucifer的心理活动简直把我虐到哭死,打字的手都是颤抖的,索性结局是HE——给小伙伴偷偷摸摸翻完之后哭着爬到lof来安利——作者简直在杀人啊啊啊啊啊啊_(:3」∠)_
重点是,Luci的心理迷之契合第五季。
PS:中间的内容蛮热辣的,毕竟是BDSM。


作者:
meinposhbastard


Summary:
Sam doesn’t want any strings attached.
Lucifer respects his wish. But it starts to kill him little by little.


未授权临时瞎几把翻译段落,有错误请原谅我。喜欢请务必点击原文(放评论)。



Sam has asked for impersonal. Gentle, but impersonal, right now. Lucifer needs to attain to that rule and nothing more. He can’t chit-chat with Sam because Sam’s his client, and his sub for the evening to take care of, and he never fails to do that, personal feelings or not.
Sam只要求他尊重他的隐私。温柔,但是必须保密。Lucifer需要遵守规则除此之外无需多言。他不能与他进行聊天,因为sam是他的客户,不过是一个需要在夜深人静得到照顾的Sub,他从未失败,不论是否需要在意对方的个人感觉。
But question after question keeps pushing in his mind. They’re a hassle to handle, so he concentrates on the now.
然而问题一个接着一个涌来,他已然无法控制心中的疑惑,他唯一能做的就是把握现在。

 “Safeword.”
“安全口令”
The gentleness in his voice pulls a soft shudder from Sam.
温柔的语调令sam不寒而栗。
“Dean.” Comes the answer, just as broken and full of meaning as the last times he said it.
“dean。”他回答,破碎的语气与上次相比愈发充满意味。
When Lucifer first asked this of Sam, he took a long minute to utter the name. Right then and there, Lucifer knew that there was a whole long and disastrous story behind that simple name. One that he can’t ask Sam about, even though he wants to know. 当Lucifer第一次询问时,他花了很长时间才说出这个名字。不管如何,Lucifer明白其中一定有一个曲折复杂的故事,但是他不能询问,即使他十分想知道。


……
“Lucifer, your boy awaits you,” says Ruby, appearing in the doorway to the common room.
Lucifer,你的男孩在等你。Ruby出现在休息室门口。
His boy. He smiles as he stands up and heads for their designated room without another word.
他的男孩,他微笑着站起来安静地走向指定的房间。
After seven weeks, everyone on the staff knows that Sam belongs to him and there’s this unspoken rule that nobody is allowed to dom Sam but him. 

七周后,每一个在这里工作的人都知道sam属于他,无形的默契蔓延开来,没有人会去碰sam除了他。 

Or maybe the general consensus is that he belongs to Sam. Either way, Lucifer has no intention whatsoever to either agree or deny any of those statements.
或者普遍的共识是,他属于sam,无论哪一点,Lucifer都保持着不闻不问的态度。


……
“You never asked me anything outside the scene,” Sam says one day, two months later.
你从来没有问过我别的事情。Sam突然说道,在两个月后的某一天。
That stops Lucifer dead in his tracks. He studies Sam for a few long moments.
这句话几乎遏止了他的缓慢死亡,很长一段时间,他都静静观察着sam脸上的表情。
“I didn’t,” he acquiesces slowly, wondering where Sam wants to head with this conversation.
我没有,他缓缓地回答,想知道sam为何要开始这个话题。
“Why?” Comes the almost shy, almost reluctant reply.
为什么?这个词几乎是有些窘迫地从他口里吐了出来。
“Because you asked for impersonal.”
因为你要求个人隐私。
Sam ponders his answer. “But you’re curious.”
Sam接受了他的回答。但是你很好奇。
“I can’t say that I’m not.”
我不能。
Sam’s lips purse in thought. The color of his blindfold is black. He’s in a good enough head space to demand rough. Sam沉思着抿起嘴,他的眼罩是黑色的。他完全能够要求他被粗鲁地对待。

Lucifer’s heart speeds up, saliva pooling into his mouth at the thought that he’ll get to rip at his own seams just a little bit more and give in to the unsettled passion that lies beneath his cool and controlled mask.

 Lucifer的心跳加速了,唾液在口腔中分泌出来,有什么不断向下好似要将他潜藏在冷漠表面之下的内心撕裂开来。
“Can I — “ But Sam’s voice dies in his throat and he swallows, lowers his head in submission.
我不能我——话音骤然停止,Sam咽了咽口水,缓缓垂下头。
Or more likely embarrassment. Lucifer pauses, studies the man for a few precious moments.
或许他很可能觉得尴尬,Lucifer停了下来,研究着眼前这个人的表情。
“What do you want, Sam?”
你想要什么,Sam?
He shakes his head. “It’s nothing. I’m sorry.” Yet, the tips of his fingers are white where they rest on his knees.
他摇了摇头,我什么都不要,抱歉。然而,他看到他停留在膝盖上的指尖因用力而微微发白。
Lucifer comes to stand a few inches apart from Sam, bends a little and tilts his head up, rough hands gentle and caring on Sam’s cleanly-shaved chin.
Lucifer站起来离sam远了一些,他弯下腰抬起他的脑袋,粗糙的手掌温柔地摩擦着sam的下巴。
“You chose the black side of your blindfold, Sam, which means that you’re in the right mood for me to take off my gloves and really make you feel the extent of my passion and desire.” 

你选择了黑色的眼罩,Sam,这意味着你渴望让我脱下手套,你想让我挑起你的激/情和欲/望。 

A shaky breath escapes Sam. “So tell me,” Lucifer whispers across Sam’s half-open lips. “What do you desire right now?”
Sam猛地倒抽一口气。所以告诉我,Lucifer贴着sam半开的嘴唇低喃,现在你想要什么?
It would take on a slight inclination of one head for their lips to meet. The thought is so tempting that Lucifer barely manages to keep his breath and himself under control.
只要微微向前一倾他们的嘴唇就能碰在一起,多么诱人的想法,Lucifer几乎要无法控制自己的呼吸,而上前吻住他。
“I want to kiss you,” Sam says, scarcely moving his lips.
我想要吻你,Sam说道。
The shaky breath gusting out belongs to Lucifer this time. Already Sam’s own is picking up in pace.
这一次Lucifer的呼吸凌乱了,几乎同时,Sam也为他的气息打乱了步调。
“But — “
“但是——”
Lucifer waits. Sam remains silent, muscle in his jaw twitching.
Lucifer等待着,Sam沉默了会,继续说道。
“Go on.”
继续。
“I… want to control it.”

 我……想要这种感觉。


……
Sam doesn’t rush right into the kiss. No, he feels first: nose dragging on Lucifer’s cheek, lips passing over his, touching lightly, and the whole time Lucifer has to murder the covers to not grab the man and kiss him senseless.
Sam没有立刻投入到这个亲吻之中,不,他首先感觉自己的鼻尖擦过Lucifer的下巴,嘴唇若有若无地触碰着,整个过程Lucifer都必须保持冷静而他恨不得抓住他而后狠狠地占有他,然而那会让一切开始有意义。
He uses hot breath and almost ticklish touches to make Lucifer question his earlier choice to let the kissing into Sam’s hands.
他的呼吸炽热甚至让Lucifer怀疑先前的选择。
And then Sam takes his lips into a short kiss; so short that Lucifer chases after him, forgetting that he should let Sam set the pace. Sam deflects easily, turning his head and letting Lucifer find only warm cheek under his lips.
随后sam短暂地亲吻了他,那么迅捷,Lucifer只得追随着他的嘴唇,忘记了他原本可以命令sam停下来。Sam轻而易举改变了脑袋的角度令Lucifer只能寻到他温暖的下巴。
“You’re playing with me,” Lucifer says into his ear, now that he’s in the area.
你在愚弄我?Lucifer在他耳边说道,现在他又回到了安全的范围。
“No, I’m trying to seduce you.” 

不,我在试图引/诱你。

Lucifer chuckles. “You’re killing me instead.”
Lucifer自嘲道,你也在试图杀了我。
Sam captures his mouth again, but this time he doesn’t backtrack. He kisses and kisses, using tongue and teeth and lips so hot and wet that Lucifer moans low in his throat.

Sam再次攫住了他的嘴唇,但这次他没有转开头,他不停地吻着他,用他的舌头牙齿还有嘴唇,强烈的热情和渴望濡湿了他们的唇瓣,Lucifer抑制不住地呻/吟出声。



…… 

“I’m sorry I failed to see how my control affected you,” he says, words laced with honesty.

“对不起,我没有看到我的控制如何影响了你,”他说,话语中带着诚实。

“Upsetting you has never been my intention, yet I still managed to drive you to step out of your boundaries to make me see my own mistake. I honestly apologize for my misstep.”
令你困惑不应该是我的目的,我仍然不能让你走出你的界限看到我的失职,我很抱歉。
Sam shakes his head as a dissent noise catches in his throat.

Sam摇了摇头,声音因哽咽而微微变形。

“I forgive you, but I still want you to punish me, so please tell me that you will,”

我原谅你,但我仍然希望你能惩罚我,拜托了,告诉我你会这么做。

he says earnestly, even going so far as to lean forward in hopes, perhaps, of getting his own wishes across physically, too.

他认真地说,甚至到目前为止,希望,或许,他能满足他身体上的需要。

“I don’t want gentle right now if you think that that’s the best course of action to atone for your mistake.”

我不希望你温柔地对我,如果你认为这是你弥补错误的最好方法。

Another shake of the head. “I want rough. I want you to spank me like I really stepped out of my line.”
他又摇了摇头,我想要被粗暴地对待,我想要你鞭打我,即使这会超过界限。

“Sam.” The word breaks somewhere in the middle, suffused with too much emotion.

Sam,话语戛然而止,仿佛包含着复杂的感情。
“I refuse to see you retreat into your Dom persona, tailored to meet your client’s desires and expectations. I want to feel owned by the real you, not some fabricated mask.”

我不想看到作为Dom的你,满足你的客户需求和期待,我想感受真实的你,而不是藏在虚假的面具底下。


……
What is Sam playing at here?
“Is this the last time I’ll be seeing you?” He hates how his voice shakes around those words.
这是不是最后一次我看见你?他厌恶自己声音中那些颤抖的语气。
Sam’s mouth is a poor substitute for the frown that has surely formed beneath the blindfold.
Sam的嘴唇不过是眼罩底下一个可怜的代替品。
“No, sir, this is not the last time you will be seeing me.”

不,先生,这不是最后一次。




……

“Kiss me,”he demands and Sam hurries to comply, but then Lucifer adds, “as if you would a lover.”
吻我,他要求道,Sam几乎立刻给了回应,但是紧接着Lucifer补充道,像一个恋人一样吻我。
There’s no hesitation in the way his lips press forward and tongue asks for entrance. Everything is granted to this gorgeous man, and Lucifer realizes that he is not ready to let him go, not now, not ever. 他毫不犹豫就贴了过去,舌尖引/诱着更深地缠/绵。Lucifer突然意识到自己还没有准备好让他离开,不是现在,而他从未想过。 He wants to keep his precious sub by his side until there are only maggots to account for their bodies; not even then. 他想把他留在身边没有任何东西可以分开他们。
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甜虐到暴风哭泣。
结局还蛮不错的,反正是Happy Ending。
明明那么好看——也许只有我觉得好看?——但是这篇文的点赞评特别迷,可能因为作者打了chapter1/2,也许还会有后续?
不得不吐槽我基本不看AU/DBSM/未完结,结果偏偏碰上了这篇,这大概就是(冷cp党的)命吧。

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